Showing posts from November, 2014

Grief, Gratitude and sleepless thoughts on God.

I was so exhausted I fell asleep yesterday at 4:30 p.m., woke at 8 and had dinner and got back in bed... where I've proceeded to be unable to sleep. And drat, it is 5 in the morning now.

People have asked, when I have told them I can't sleep, was something on my mind. why, yes. there was something on my mind. I had watched a tv series online and 3 episodes dealt with the following: child dying of illness, cancer, and a car accident that kills someone precious to them. So, yeah, it brought up some stuff.

First: Gratitude. I am thankful for God preserving the lives of my children. Way too many times could my children have died, in particular Samuel and Michael.  I've seen them stop breathing and turn blue on more than one occasion. Samuel's Infected CVL (central venous line). Reflux and aspiration (Samuel and Michael at different times). Etc.

Thoughts hang out on the back burner of my mind. I'm not consciously trying to think certain things, they just pop up. Samuel&#…

The Importance of Being 4

On the night of November 7th Peter sent the passy fairy a gift  when he released 4 balloons with an attached passy (pacifier) up into the sky . In return he received a jar with 500 pennies. He has let go of this much addicted substance with a lot of grace. He asked a few times for passy and there were a couple times when he was super tired and in need of a nap that he really felt the need to take a hit but we have persevered and his addiction is broken.

I can't believe my youngest is 4! What a difference in time and space when my oldest was 4. Libby had 3 younger siblings when she was 3!

Peter provides much needed comedy relief around here. He knows how to get his siblings to laugh. He gets away with a lot to because everyone says, "Well, you know Peter is the LITTLEST". Which is hilarious given "baby" moose's ample size.

What a blessing that God gave us this joy boy in the midst of difficulty and trial. I was pregnant with Peter when Samuel was diagnosed …

Gifts of Friendship.

There are some people in this life it's hard to live with... and there are others you can't live without. This would be one of them. Michelle. My friend for over 15 years. We have been through some amazing and difficult life changes together even while thousands of miles apart. God is amazing to have given me one of the kindest, encouraging, loving friends.

We don't always talk regularly and never see each other as much as we'd like to but I always know that Michelle has my back. Thanks for coming over and helping me with sick kids. For holding my hand and passing the tissues when I can't stop the tears. For bringing sunshine into my life with coffee and thoughtful gifts. For running to stores with me... or sitting in the cars with kids while I run in. For trips to the zoo. For tea time. For helping me clean.

For speaking truth in love. For telling me that I can do this with God's help. For helping me know and love God more.

I love you and I am praying for you.…



Aquarium (part 2)