Showing posts from December, 2008

The Problem with Believing Lies.

I am starting to wonder if there is something truly wrong with me. What I mean by that is that I think I have believed a lot of the Enemy's lies- hook, line, and sinker. I've always been a kind of gullible gal. Quick to believe what anyone says. But lately, I'm starting to realize that some of the assumptions I've always made are incorrect and are in fact very wrong.

Now for those of you who don't struggle with people pleasing (fear of man), perfectionism (not accepting you're an imperfect creature), being a control freak (trying to play God) then you will think wow, she's just a really anal retentive mess... but if you find yourself relating on some level or another... read on.

I have what I like to call a Martha Stewart Complex.... what I mean by that is I get a hundred really great ideas. Creative, inspiring, whimsical, cute, thoughtful, etc. The problem is unlike Martha Stewart I don't have a huge team to implement these plans. But probably lik…

Ears, Tears, & Birthdays

After much crying and screaming the truth comes out... Michael has a double ear infection. Poor baby. He's usually the most content and joyful baby so when he's yelling something's wrong. He's on amoxicillin and on the mend. still fussy but who's going to blame him.

Samuel managed to get some home fragrance, Romantic Cinnamon Christmas oil, on his hands as he attempted to open the bottle. he then rubbed it into his eyes. That was fun flushing his eyes out as he's screaming. Thanks dad for the help! The oil managed to make Samuel and I break out with red splotches all over. yes, very attractive.

I managed to fall asleep at 4:30 p.m. on the couch yesterday. I then crawled into bed at 6 p.m. and slept until I needed to nurse. And then slept until 9:30 or 10 a.m. Yes, I'm still exhausted. I feel like I could sleep for a week!

So, Mike is gone for the night and I'm taking the opportunity to burn some candles, work on crafts, write thank you notes,…

quick update

Mike was sick throwing up yesterday. He was really, really unwell.

We went to the E.R. yesterday to get his packing removed. The incision looks clean.

He's feeling better today. Tired and worn out but keeping food and fluids down.

I'm burnt out and exhausted and don't think I can do another dang thing. I managed to hurt/twist my hip and knee (on my left side) and my right foot is still really hurting. I feel like the Hunchback of Notre Dame.

I'm sad to have canceled a family party last night... and I don't think we'll make a family event today. But the way we're feeling... I don't think it would be good to be around anyone.

So we're resting today. Literally in bed chilling out. I think a little back to the future movie watching and a little Screwtape Letters reading... and some sleep are in order.

Mersa Christmas and Ham Prayers.

Mersa Christmas Everyone! Or should I say Merry Christmas?

Mike and I landed in the E.R. last night at 11 p.m. He has a bought of Mersa and is on vicatin and strong antibiotics. I've been up since 4 a.m. He was very brave through a very painful lancing. I was glad to wish nurses and doctors and security guards merry christmas and blessed to have a rite aid across the street where we could pick up Mike's prescriptions.

All in all it's been a great Christmas. Fun time. Family. Good food. We had a big breakfast of coffee, juice, eggs, bacon, sausage, and cinnamon rolls... thanks Annie for the rolls!

The kids are enjoying their gifts. They were few but I think it makes it ever more fun and special. Not Christmas overload. In particular Libby is loving her princess tea set and Samuel has blocks and is building like crazy... and dinos that are everywhere. Mike bought me a watch and a lovely chunky metal and onyx like bracelet... and a massage from the kids :)

I got hi…

Needing Jesus.

I lie in bed unable to sleep. It's nearing 1 a.m. and I've been up since 4 a.m. So you think I'd be sleeping but I'm not. My mind has been heavy and today has been a mix of a good and difficult day. Church was great and I felt tremendously encouraged by receiving prayer from many people. I was so thankful when at the end of the message they asked if any felt burdened or heavy hearted to come and receive prayer. I felt like it was me that they were talking to.

I feel so desperate to see God move and at work. This waiting. This slow process of trying to see God in the midst of so much turmoil, anxiety and fear. I want to believe God. I know the truth and I'm trying to base my actions on the truth, not how I feel.

Somedays it is literally putting one step in front of the other.

I feel like I'm doing well and then I speak sharply to one of the kids. I finish reading the Word and I go downstairs and complain about something. The worst is being in the car a…

Santa Babies.


What We've Been Up To.

Gingerbread House. Thanks Jill!

Final Exam.
Decorating Gingerbread men. Thanks Debi.

I have been blessed in the midst of not being able to do much to have people come and do fun things with me and the kids or just the kids. I made candy-cane reindeer with them yesterday and "Snow" pictures out of miniature marshmallows. It's been fun to do crafts with them. Mike's final is done. Can I get an Amen?! Yay! My foot's doing much better. I can still tell when I "push it" but I feel significantly better.

It's not easy being a monkey...


American Auntie.

Thea & Elias.

One of the joys of having a close friendship with my friend Sara from Sweden is getting to be an American "Auntie". Sara and I have been friends since 2000. We met in Australia and started to become friends there but it was in East Timor where we served together that we became very close. Sleeping in the same quarters... laughing at the mosquitoes.... breaking plates with the German Ms. Hildegarrd. Eating cheese and crackers. Savoring oreos. Singing Christmas Carols in the heat of the jungle while traveling through guerilla warfare in the mountain villages... we've had our share of adventures.

Sara has walked with me through so much. She's been to America for my wedding and just recently after the birth of the twins. She has often been willing to lay down her life and come to my aid during times of crisis... her willingness means so much to me. And I've had the joy to visit her... remember trying to find a bathroom in Denmark? Spe…

Bath Time.

Ian Christoph
Michael MacLeod

Books I love.

Okay I think I picked up this book at least 6 times or so at Barnes & Noble and looked at every single page. And drooled and was inspired. Thankfully I had an amazon gift certificate and was able to purchase this and the creative family... and get free shipping. Did I score or what? I love the ideas in this book and it's helped me to stretch and think outside the box.

I'm well over halfway through this book. I don't really know what Amanda believes in terms of God/Theology but I love her desire to be with her kids and explore and be imaginative together. I'm really enjoying the book and am looking forward to applying some of her ideas but in my own way and for my family. Looking forward to showing some results of this book... when things settle down. ha ha.

Oh what sweet relief. I need to be reminded that I don't need to be perfect. God is perfect. I am not. This book has brought deep encouragement to my soul and a healthy reality check and reminder tha…

Learning to Laugh.

I've always been one of those people who have taken themselves too seriously and taken things way too personally. So I'm learning to let go. Let go of my unrealistic expectations I have of myself. (Yes, I ordered my Christmas cards two weeks ago but have not mailed or even addressed them. ) I'm learning to laugh. Laugh at the irony of my life... and the constant build up of things... or more how one thing after another seems to happen.

Samuel fell on blocks on Sunday and has a small cut and bruise on the corner of his eye area... not the eye itself but the part below the eyebrow (will post picture soon). Kids are constantly bumping on my foot. Libby fell and scratched up her arm today. Ian has a blow out... all over clothes, etc.

But I have so much to be grateful for. I didn't break my knee or hip. Mike not working has enabled him to help me with the kids. God is meeting our needs. Our caregroup is bringing us meals. The Napiers got us some things from Co…

forget the beach.

Well, Libby and Samuel had been with my mother-in-law overnight so that Mike and I could focus on caring for the twins and my foot. Unfortunately, Libby has been throwing up all morning. Thank you Faf for caring for her! (and Samuel too)!

This means no beach.

Whoever said "life is a beach" doesn't know my family.

Another "7th" postponed. In March this year Samuel and I were both hospitalized. Last December 7th... Samuel was hospitalized and we found out were having twins (yes, in the same day).

Will we ever get a break?

Okay, please keep encouragement coming... we really need it!

More than just a broken foot...

I just realized from the angle of the picture that it looks like I injured my left foot.... well, it's actually the right. I can't drive. I've woken up in agonizing pain several times through the night.

It's interesting having physical and emotional pain at the same time. This week-end (the 7th) would have been my sister Libby's 26th birthday. I've been grieving all week. Just needing God in such a deep and desperate way right now.

Please pray for us. It's been a real hard week. Mike is officially out of a job. Yesterday with the foot injury and then the battery died in the van...and well, missing my sister more than words can say. I've experienced burn out this week but now I just laugh because as Mike puts it, "this is absurd". It really is.

I'm getting some blood work done this morning. So I'm fasting. Did I mention I'm hungry? And grumpy? :)

Hoping to still get away this week-end. We're hoping to go to Mike'…

Bad to the bone.

So. What is going on in these pictures. I am showing you my latest development actually. I managed to fall into a hole and injure my foot. Actually one of my tendons snapped off a piece of bone in my ankle. So voila. I now have a splint and will be seeing an orthopedic doctor (you know foot doctor). I am trying to figure out how to use crutches... and also wondering how in the world I'm going to take care of the kids. Yes, these things are real challenges.

just when I figured things couldn't get much worse...