Showing posts from May, 2007

Asking for help.

It's really hard for me to ask for help. Even when I desperately need it I find it challenging to tell people that I need them. There have been times that I've been rejected or burned by people who I had asked help from and it's made me hesitant to ask again. I'm growing though! I've started asking for help... and I'm so glad that I have.

On the retreat I asked several people for help with the kids. If they could watch them while I made lunch or if they could feed Samuel while I was doing something else. It's really stretching for me to ask complete "strangers" for help... and I'm glad I did.

I'm realizing if we are to be the body of Christ that we need to ask each other for help. We are all created and gifted in various ways and those ways work and move together. Isn't that amazing?!

On Monday I asked a couple from Westminster for help...could they possibly watch our kids sometime? And they said yes. Thursday night Mike and I…

Escape Artist.

Look out! He's on the move! Samuel has become an escape artist. His new favorite place is the stairs. I have to watch him like a hawk now. He pulls himself to his feet now and can take steps holding our hands- this is an amazing accomplishment for him. He's on a real developmental growth spurt... praise God!

I had just woken up when Mike snapped this picture of me and Samuel. We were both caught. Samuel was caught on the stairs. I was caught waking up.

Papa's Hat.

One of Libby & Samuel's favorite things to do is to wear papa's hat. They laugh and giggle as they take turns putting it on and taking it off.

Pennsylvania Train Museum

Libby loves trains or as she refers to them, "Choo-Choos." So it was with great excitement that we were able to take the kids to an actual train museum with over a 100 locomotive engines. The trains were cool to look at but the joy on Libby's face was so much more amazing to watch. It was a great afternoon.


This past week-end we went to Lancaster County for our church retreat. It was a great time of fellowship and hanging out and finding out more about the church and talking about membership/commitment.

One of the definite highlights for me was going to the Train Museum there. Libby was so excited and thrilled and cried the whole way back after we left all the choo-choos. Pictures are coming. it's just too late tonight and I had just wanted to post something about this past week-end.



It's not easy being a cheerleader. You have to work hard at times about being cheerful and enthusiastic. Right now we're in the home stretch with Mike's final exams. He has one tomorrow (Thursday) and his last one is Friday. Afterwards we're packing up and getting ready to go on a retreat with our church. It's kind of like a Foundations Class (membership class) condensed into a week-end. I'm pretty excited to get away. We're bringing the kids (of course) :) and heading out to the mountains, I think. Well, to be perfectly honest, I'm not sure where it's located. I mean I have mapquest directions... ok, I think it might be in Lancaster County... we'll see :)

These past two weeks have been thick with tension and stress due to many culminating factors: grief, fatigue, PMS (sorry guys who are reading this), Mike's exams/papers, finances, sick children, and um, my sin. So I'm looking forward to some down time with my little nuggets an…

Come to Mine House.

I wish you could be here right now. I'd love to make a big batch of scones, put the kettle on, and pour some tea all around. Do you ever have those moments where you could use a friend? I mean sure you love e-mailing your friends and receiving their lettes and even talking on the phone but I wish I could just transport you to my doorstep. You don't even have to wipe your feet. I'd love to just have you come in and "sit a spell".

I don't even know where it all began... but I remember my parents talking to each other in a cute way and saying, "Do you want to come to mine house?" And it kind of stuck with me. So at times I'll turn to my honey and say to him, "Do you want to come to mine house?"

Right now, I'm asking you that question... I know you can't really come but I'm just going to pretend. It's not that I'm doing bad, but I miss the comfort of having a friend sit across from me and just being able to ch…

To the Moms.

To all the wonderful moms out there: I'm thinking of you and thankful for you. For my mom, my mother-in-law, my aunts, grandmothers, friends, and mentors- Thank you for the example of womanhood that you are and specifically the different ways you've showed me how to be a good mom... and become a better mom.

And for those who are suffering because they've longed to be a mom and can't get pregnant. For those who have lost their children, their beautiful irreplaceable treasures... and for those who have lost their mom, the one who gave you life and loved you wholeheartedly albeit imperfectly... know that my heart is with you and grieves with you. May the God of all comfort be near to your heart. May He console you. He gave up His Son to death on a cross for us. I'm not saying that to minimize your pain, I'm saying he grieves with you. He knows your pain.

So, as much as I want to rejoice with those who are rejoicing, those who can kiss their sweet babes and h…


The Lord is my light and my salvation -- whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life -- of whom shall I be afraid? Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear; though war break out against me, even then will I be confident. One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple. For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock. (Psalm 27:1,3-5)

I am trying to fight the fear that cripples me. Like Much Afraid in the book Hind's Feet on High Places I am crippled. I often let my fears rule me and base my decisions on those feelings... what a horrible cycle. I am learning to break free. To cry out to my creator and say, "Help me!" I am learning that He is more powerful than my fears.

After my sister's death I began to experience th…


Yesterday was a bad day. Nothing in particularly bad happened. It might have been my hormones. It might have been sleep deprivation. It might have been the kids going crazy as Mike and I call it "T-Rexin it!" We make our arms tiny like a T-Rex and roar.
Yeah, the kids were definitely T-Rexin it.

It started off a good enough day. Mike and the kids and I went to the bank and I went to Kinko's to fax medical request info. for Samuel. I dropped him off at school and the kids and i went to Target to make some major returns. You know those items you tell yourself you need to return but they keep lingering bec. you couldn't find the receipt or whatever. I had spent the morning digging through the receipts and taping them to the items. No kidding, I probably had 15 items to return. A cardigan I didn't try on... and surprise it didn't fit. A clock that never worked right in the first place, a pair of shorts that are marked with the sticker 3T but the insi…

Love in Motion.


31 days sans le sucre (without sugar).

So, It's either day 4 or 5 that I've gone without "sugar". I allow turbinado sugar in my tea and brown sugar in my oatmeal. Those are the exceptions. I'm not eating sugar in general like in sweet cereals (aaaahhhh--- cinnamon toast crunch), ice-cream, brownies, cakes, pastries, sodas etc. And here's the biggie chocolate. For some reason it's been surprisingly "easy". I really felt like God wanted me to fast from sugar until my birthday and I started May 3rd. So I guess it's day 5! Yippee. I might allow myself a special treat on Mother's Day... that's still up in the air. I'm not feeling legalistic about it. I'm just excited that I'm training myself, disciplining myself to abstain.


Libby is obsessed with lip balm. She loves to find my lip gloss or chapstick or lipstick... whatever she can find to put on her lips... and carry the item around and say, "Mmm, lips"... or "special lips". Her current obsession is with Carmex. She carries it around with her everywhere and when she wears her little overalls she puts it in her front pocket.

In the words of Larry from Veggie Tales, "I love my Lips!"

a quick laugh.

Mike and I were in the car. We were both exhausted. He had been up all night writing a paper. I just hadn't slept well. So were both kind of loopy and starting throwing stuff (quotes) out at each other. "Fellows please!*" We started laughing. He turned and looked at me... "Most people we know quote the Office...we quote Veggie Tales!"

*Archibald Asparagus playing Jonah, in JONAH- A VEGGIE TALES MOVIE.


So I'm currently going through the book of Habbakuk in my women's Bible Study. The leader of the group made a really interesting observation. Let me explain Habbakuk a little bit in laymen's terms. So Habbakuk is complaining of the people of Israel to the Lord (bec. they're sinful and whatnot) and then the Lord tells him (Habbakuk), "Hey, I'm going to punish them. I'm going to use these Chaldeans (AKA Babylonians) and then Habbakuk starts lamenting, like, "Lord, why are you going to use these EVIL people to judge Israel. I mean those guys are REALLY bad, we're relatively righteous compared to them..." So then my leader brings up the age old struggle of how we wrestle God with questions. Questions like, "Well, why does this happen to us and not somebody else... or why do bad things happen to good (or relatively good) people. It brought up a lot of thoughts. Sometimes (and be prepared this is pretty terrible) I look at sisters who…

The Pictures You've Been Waiting For.


Easter, Part Two.

We didn't get to have Easter because Samuel and I were at the hospital. But I did put Libby in her Easter dress (2 weeks later) and threw some eggs in the yard and had her pick them up. Here are some pics.

Dumping Ground.

Have you ever found yourself caught in the evil comparision trap? I'm finding myself there. I'm looking at others (ok. looking at other women) and thinking, "They look better than me. They're a better photographer. They're blog is cooler. They're a better mom. They have their lives in order. They're organized. They're a better cook. Nicer house. Nicer car. Nicer.... whatever" I am reminding myself lately what it says in the Psalms, that my "boundaries have fallen in pleasant places." I'm not going to pretend to have it together... I don't. I do know though that I have this Awesome Father who loves me and has a plan for my life. That I'm being redeemed. That I'm crushed, but I won't despair... I am broken but I am not overcome. Greater is He who that is in Me than he who is in the world! I wonder how often we spend time comparing ourselves with others instead of embracing and enjoying who God made us …

Quick Visit.

My mom had a conference in New York so the week-end before the conference and a couple days after she came and visited. She brought her friend Annie with her. We had a great time not doing much in particular but we had a fun day and went to Chestnut Hill and they helped me with projects like cleaning out my car (which is still spotless!) This is right before they left when I realized we hadn't taken a single picture and I had a camera with me the WHOLE time!

the Park.

There is a little park close by that I like to take the kids to. Libby loves the slide there. Well, there are differents slides but there is one particular slide she likes to go down. Well, with the help of one of the neighborhood kids (Jaylin) she went down the "Big Slide".

Samuel usually just watches Libby but this time he got to try the slide too!