Showing posts from May, 2009
Well, dear friends. Mike has graduated. Be expecting some fun posts. Grad pictures and some other fun posts to come. The trip went well. Michael did great and was so much fun to show off to our friends in PA. Libby, Samuel and Ian were great back home with friends watching them.

So more to come. Just thought you should know.

The thoughts in my head.

This was written previously. Michael is out of the hospital. This was written on Wednesday the day we brought him into the hospital. He is recovering at home. Pretty congested and coughing a lot. We are keeping him on pedialyte but home to resume normal feeds tomorrow!

This morning (Wednesday) started out rougher than I thought. I did the very silly thing of not checking my planner this week... and forgot what today was. I knew the therapist was coming but I had forgotten my earlier commitment to watch two other children this morning. The good thing is that I remembered before they came and jumped out of bed and got dressed and told Mike in a very rushed way to expect company. We love these little boys and they are so much fun to have around.

I went to gather the twins from their cribs and as I was undoing all of Michael's wires and tubing and unbuckli…

Recovery room.

Michael is back home. Sorry that I've neglected to post. I've been down with a stomach bug. Michael has been sick, coughing violently and with a mild fever. Ian has had a high fever. So we haven't been doing much around here. Libby and Samuel are well with slight allergies right now. Mike is tired but doing fine. So we're all just needing a break to chill out and heal and get better.


Okay, so you might have known that I had a post (yesterday) and it disappeared. It's being edited. Anyway, I am at the hospital with michael (CHKD). We are still here and will be here again overnight. The doctors are still trying to discuss an action plan. His "blue spells" were so out of the blue. there is no cause/effect going on here. We're still trying to figure out what to do. There is some talk about "layrngo-spasm" which would cause temporary obstruction and would affect his breathing.

My internet access hasn't been working at CHKD. So the updates are sketchy. I will try and keep you posted.

He had a fever yesterday of over 101 and it broke yesterday. He's been happy and cheerful today. He did fine overnight and hasn't had an episode since last evening.


(Written days ago...)

Banana is smeared on the side of my black shirt. I dropped a cracked egg on my flip-flop foot... and it was sticky and gooey. I found bits of Ian's lunch in my hair. I got thrown up on by Michael. My nails are disastrous. I haven't washed my face yet. My toes could use some polish. And did I mention I'm in need of a shower. It's a good thing I don't define beauty by appearance.

Ian is crying from his nap so I need to keep it short... Libby has just returned from gathering eggs with her Gwampa.

Beauty isn't always visible to the eye. Yes, sometimes beauty is an obvious outward aesthetic experience but I tend to find beauty elsewhere. In kind words and big smiles. In a generous act and in faithful love. In self-denial and gentleness. It comes out of a heart that is content and a soul that is at peace. It's found in the storms that are kept calm through prayer and the birthing of new things. And beauty can come from pain. Where woul…

For Uncle John.

Dear John,
Happy being done with law-school Day! The kids made this video for you days ago-when you were still in the midst of finals. I meant to upload it right away and post it but there wasn't time.... But since videos of the kids are one of your favorite things... here you go!


P.S.~ Congratulations! You did it! It's amazing how you and Mike have pushed through and persevered... man, Graduate school is so tough.


I get totally overwhelmed and guilted out by all the ways I want to catch up with people and don't.

What do I mean you might say?

Well, I haven't checked people's blogs in like 3 months... I only check facebook every few weeks and have no idea what I'm doing there... and I get scared to check people's blogs now because I'm afraid someone else is pregnant or already had their baby or something major is going on that I've missed and I don't have the time to go through 60+ blogs for the past 20+ entries and see what's happening.

My cell phone feels like a joke. I miss calls all the time because my phone doesn't ring. Or the phone rings and I can't answer because it will drop the call. Or I don't answer because I'm changing a diaper... solving a fight between toddlers, feeding someone, cleaning something... am upstairs and the phone is downstairs or downstairs and the phone is upstairs (Mike recommends that I tape it to my butt), or c…


me and Mindi.
Mindi came over with her kids recently and we took these sel-pics of ourselves. It's so fun to spend time with friends.

There has been a nice rhythm and flow to the last several days. It's been nice having such lovely cool weather. I've been able to tackle a few small projects each day outside of the normal to-do's. Michael has been doing so GREAT! I am so proud of him. He has been such a doll as usual.

Mike has been working hard. He has a final exam next Tuesday and a paper to turn in (15 pages) and then he's done. He will be graduating on the 28th of this month! Can you believe it? We've done it! Okay, he's done it but I think you get the idea.

I have been exercising and eating well. Trying to do that whole "taking care of self thing".

I've been enjoying making home-made omelets lately. Onions, peppers, mushrooms, garlic, olive oil, six-pepper blend... mmm. With toast-fruit & grain bread by pepperidge farm... I l…

Healing Balm.

It's been a long day. Full of the mundane things: preparing meals, doing dishes, changing diapers, fixing lunch, changing diapers, doing dishes... and making dinner.

I enjoyed dinner tonight... sweet, fresh corn on the cob, sweet potato casserole, salad with feta, avocado, pecans, craisins, and six pepper chicken, baked potatoes, and home-made sweet beer bread. Lots of sweet. Lots of Tasty. I managed to clean up the kitchen and it's actually spotless. I vacuumed downstairs.

I actually was able to read the Bible this morning. It was encouraging. I was reading the Psalms which I always find comforting... I keenly felt comforted this morning as I spent a lot of last night crying. I had watched a movie with Mike that made me think of my sister. I listened to some meaningful songs and I cried and I cried. Sometimes I just need to let it out. so this morning God's Word was particularly welcoming. Like a soothing balm on a a bad burn.

As I read through the Psalms I was pa…
So what are some of your Favorite things????

Favorite Things...

I was walking in the grocery store with Alaina last Tuesday (my mommy's helper for Tuesdays) and was struck by how many things I told her I loved... coffee, a certain flavor of this, a certain type of that... and I realized I used the word "Love" a lot. So I don't want to get in the habit of saying "I love this" so it doesn't water down the meaning. So instead I will use the word enjoy. There are a lot of things I enjoy... here are some of my favorites: This isn't including all the typical things, you know: family, friends, clean water, food, shelter, etc. These are the tid-bits.. Hope I don't sound too Sound of Music-ish... raindrops on roses and all that... :)

Favorite Things:

Comfy Jeans
Mac (computers)
silver jewelry
Granny Smith Apples
Flowers: lily of the valley, tulips, gardenias, magnolias, roses, pansies, hyacinths, calla lilies, lilac, lavender, hydrangeas, etc.
Good dark chocolate
My repeat movies: Return to Me, Pride & Preju…

Mango Moments.

I love when I make myself try something new.

I was walking in the produce section of the grocery store and saw it. The beautiful green and red glow of fresh mangoes. My last experience of mangoes was in East Timor 9 years ago... but they were rotten... and I didn't know it... made me throw up... so I decide to give it a whirl.

Delicious, fresh and sweet. It was like peach inside but more firm and more tropical. Hmmmm. I love it when new things go well.

Today has been a low day. I woke up to the rain. And the tears have been rolling all day. I have missed my sister so bad. I dreamt about her last night. I dreamt she was alive. It felt so real. And when I woke she was gone. The ache is ripping my guts out.

I yelled out loud at the kids and I actually swore "Damn It!!!" I was so exasperated trying to get the kids in the car and I finally had them buckled in. It took 20 minutes to get them all in and then Libby told me as I was backing out that she had to go potty.…

Before I was a mom.

I was sent this recently. Given that mother's day is just around the corner I thought it was appropriate... I could definitely add to the list...

Before I was a Mom ,
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not
my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom ,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom ,
I never held down a screaming child
so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom ,
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt.!
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could l…

"Let's see..."

I'm in trouble. Today for the first time Ian was on his knees leaning up (trying to stand) and pulling things out of the toy buckets. Oh my. Yes, so it begins. He's gotten into small pieces and choked a couple times in the past. But today is different. It's a benchmark. A mile stone. A frightening reminder that my kids are growing up.

I drove past where we were yesterday when the funnel cloud hit. There were broken tree branches littered everywhere and fences knocked down. It really wasn't my imagination.

I just caught Ian trying to eat a grocery receipt. Yesterday he was trying to climb the stairs. He's currently climbing under the furniture and eating the scraps under the table. Who needs a puppy?

l made peanutbutter cookies today for my brother. Ian somehow managed to snag one before I could think of peanuts and potential allergies. So far no allergic reaction just a dirty baby... and he just had a bath.... Why do I bathe my kids again?

Well it's a di…

Ears and Oz.

Michael can hear! I mean really hear. He's responding to noise... it's amazing and he's babbling and talking more. He did well with the splints and has been as sweet as ever. Today he got his splints off and immediately hands went right into the mouth. So there you go. Apparently 5 days without doesn't break him of the habit.

It's late. Really late. Almost 1 a.m. but it's the only chance I had to post. So there you go.

I had a great day with the kids. We got to be home... no doctors appointments or therapy... so nice. We just ate and played and the kids napped and I did dishes and read books to them. We went out to Target later as a family and did some grocery shopping. It was nice to be out together- all 6 of us.

earlier in the day there was a tornado watch in progress. I remember seeing the sky darken and rain on and off throughout the day. I could see the cool front moving too fast for comfort. I reminded myself that I would just scoop up the …

All is Well.

Hello. Hope I didn't scare all of you by not posting. Michael's ear was infected and full of puss and they were able to clean it and put his tubes in. His cleft palate repair went by the book. I had meant to post but by the time we got to our room (where we had internet access) we were trying to get him settled and he started experiencing pain (so we were distracted) and the internet connection was soooooo slooooooow. By the time I got home that night I was just too exhausted to e-mail or post.

Michael and Mike came home the next day! He was in a Tylenol Codeine stupor for the day but was sleeping through most of it or staring at us with glassy eyes.

Michael is doing great! He's actually acting like himself today. Sweet and happy although a little more mellow than usual. His arms are in splints to keep him from shoving his hands down his mouth ( a favorite and comforting habit of his). His surgeons were both pleased with the results and he will have follow-up appts. wi…