Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Crazy, anyone?

Taking Samuel to the doctor's yesterday was an experience. It started on the drive there. I was reaching in my purse for my cell phone to call Mike and to see how he was feeling. He was at school. Well, I grabbed the phone and it slipped out of my hand. No problem. I'll pick it up at the next red light. Well, I couldn't find it. At every stop we came to I would look around. I looked EVERYWHERE. Slightly frustrated but trying to keep my cool I thought I'd find it once we reached the doctor's office. Nope.

In the past I've always been "lucky" so to speak and found a parking spot. This one last time to the pediatrician while in PA and I could find NO parking spot. Just my luck. I'm on bed-rest and probably shouldn't even be driving but I had to take Samuel... so, I had to park at a drug store and walk Samuel in his stroller... up a huge hill. I'm not even supposed to be exercising... needless to say, contractions followed.

Thankfully Samuel was great. He contentedly sat in his stroller eating shredded wheat and drinking soy milk. The nurses and doctors were concerned that I parked so far away. So after the appointment the nurse watched Samuel and told me to get the car and park in the handicapped parking spot. I left empty-handed and saw the empty parking space. I got the car and drove back... the spot was taken! The problem with the parking area is it's a one way with no space to pass any car so I threw the car in park and put on my emergency flashers and went and told the nurse... she watched the car as I took Samuel to get pricked (blood-lead test). Thankfully the nurse helped me put him in his car seat and get us on our way. It was comical. We had a line of cars patiently waiting behind us.

So, I'm still needing my cell phone. Let me explain. Libby's teacher was watching her for me so I could take Samuel to the appointment without extra stress. She was going to drop Libby off later. Our doorbell doesn't work so the only way she can reach me is to call my cell... and I couldn't find it. And I couldn't be able to tell when she would arrive. So, I stopped at Mike's school and thought I'd wait for him so he could call my cell phone and hopefully we could find it. I was praying hard. Where is it? finally, after crazy searching and Mike having by chance texted me I found it. Snuggly under my seat. It had slid behind and to the left and landed under my seat. I texted him and tried to explain my day. Well, he found out that I had been at school so he came out... just as I had left to rush home because Libby's teacher said she would be at the house shortly to drop off Libby.

I don't know if any of this is making sense but it just ended up being one of those crazy laughable times... where there was much miscommunication and confusion.

Samuel's appointment went well. He's in the 56% percentile in weight... he used to not even be on the chart his weight was so low. He does need to see an ENT specialist (Ear, Nose & Throat) and follow-up with pulmonary in VA and find a dentist (malloclusion-sp? & teeth grinding) and get him started on speech therapy down there.... no pressure, really :) Ha. No problem... it doesn't matter that I'm on bed-rest and can't actually drive him to these appointments, right? :) The most pressing thing though the pediatrician stressed was contacting Samuel's pulminologist up here and having him contact the pulmonologist down there...

I'm seeing the OBGYN again tomorrow... getting my cervix checked and such.

Mike was burning up with fever last night. I'm coughing and sneezing and leaking nasally. He's sick. I think I'm catching it too. Yippee. I need to call the rental truck for next week... and the electric company... and get the mail switched... and... and... and... does it ever end?

I'm watching the kids this morning so Mike can nap. I'm exhausted though. Oh life and all it's glorious simplicities and complexities. Well, I'm going to make some calls. Happy crazy day to you.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Diapers, Dental work, and days like this.

Okay, maybe I'm doing too much research. I was literally dreaming about cloth diapers for the past 2 nights. Pregnancy brain?

yesterday I had some dental work done. Thank God. I really wanted to be sure I was up to speed BEFORE the twins come. I know afterwards the likelihood is slim that I will be visiting the dentist anytime soon.

Today Samuel has his 2 year appointment. I'm taking him this afternoon and debating if I have enough strength/ability to take him in for a haircut prior to his appointment. Maybe, I'll just wait :) We'll see.

Mike is starting to get run down. Unfortunately this is not a big surprise to me. He's been working so hard trying to care for me and for the kids and to prepare for the move.... and school... and.... and... so he's exhausted and I think has a chest cold. I wish I knew what to do to help him right now. Not fun when I'm a position of "weakness" so to speak.

It's been challenging to deal with all the obstacles of daily life while on bed-rest. Libby has really been "acting out" lately. I think all the changes of hospitalizations and grandparents coming and going and school getting thrown off and I think she can pick up on all the stress Mike and I are experiencing. Samuel has actually been doing fairly well lately. He just wants me to hold him all the time... slightly problematic because I can't carry him or I'm not supposed to.

And me, well, I'm just trying to get through day by. Every day is a victory... one more day the babies are INSIDE me. I still am having some contractions but they're not as consistent as they have been. I'm looking forward to moving down to Va on Sunday. I just want to be down there already in a way... so I can start all the processes of getting things switched over. I am sad too. It's weird leaving the life that we created up here. Friends, Bible Study, our home group and church... plus the conveniences of Trader Joe's just down the street and a school that Libby loves. Lots of mixed emotions. Well, off to eat some breakfast and see what I can do for Mike.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Cloth Diapers... a new obsession.

Okay, I'm a pretty funny girl. I've had two children and had been content with them in disposable diapers. here's the thing though, Libby is not potty trained and Samuel is nowhere close and there will be two more nuggets in diapers soon! So today I have been researching cloth diapers like a mad-woman. Why? Numerous reasons. The biggest one is I can save some major moolah by going the extra mile and washing my diapers and putting them in cloth. The next reason is so I won't be putting chemicals like chlorine on my children. Third, I want to be good to the environment by not adding tons of disposable diapers that are hard to dispose of to land fills.

I was completely overwhelmed when I first started trying to figure this all out. Thankfully after some coffee talk with my friend Sarah I felt a little more prepared and pointed in the right direction. Currently, I'm feeling a little addicted. I joined and have been able to have tons of questions answered in their various forums. I have learned all about the different types of cloth diapers:

1.) Pre-folds. You know the kind our parents used on us. But now instead of pins they have these other options called a snappi diaper fastener. No pokes, no prodding. The good thing is these are cheap but they do require a diaper cover... but oh, the options of cute diaper covers!

2.) Contour. These are already pre-folded or shaped for you. Makes it easy. Use the snappi fastener and then a cover.

3.) Pocket diapers. These diapers you add an insert into the pocket and you're good to go. When washing you separate the insert from the rest of the diaper and wash. No cover needed.

4.) All-in-ones. These are the amazing ones. These are exactly what they say. You don't need a liner or an insert or a diaper cover. Bum Genius is the brand I'm looking at in this department.

I laughed when I had read someone saying that cloth diapering is now a hobby for them. I understand this. There are all sorts of amazing varieties, styles, prices, etc. Some all-in-one diapers are sized for various ages others come in a one-size fits most (8-35 pounds). I think I've become addicted and I haven't even bought one yet! There are a lot of great sites with a lot of information out there.

Some of my favorites are:

I am researching the following diapers: Bum Genius, Swaddlebees, Kissaluvs, Haute Pocket, Bummis, Thirsties, Happy Heiny's, Fuzzi Bunz, Drybees, oh and tiny tush.

I am learning how to launder them. How to dispose of pooh and such. What works best for newborns, crawlers, toddlers, etc. What products are helpful with cloth diapering, etc.

I'm not claiming to know much but I have enjoyed researching and putting together some ideas of how I'm going to be diapering my children.

I think Mike was a little nervous by this idea until I put together an estimation of how much it's going to cost us to diaper the twins. From birth till 3 the cost would be about $7,000 (I'm basing this estimate on the fact that a child uses about 10,000 diapers by the time they're 3). check out: This is not including Samuel's cost in diapers. Some cloth diapers can be expensive running around $17.00 per diaper. But they're made to last until potty-training. Others are much cheaper and if you get pre-folds you are really getting a deal. A lot of them offer package deals and sunshine diapers even has a trial diaper system where you try 24 various diapers for 3 months ($240) to see what you like and return them and get $120 credit towards the diapers you want to purchase. They have such cool ways to figure out what works and what doesn't. the point is even if I were to go the "high-end" cloth diapering route I will be saving us thousands upon thousands of dollars!

Anyway, being on bed-rest is allowing me to research and figure it out. Just thought I'd share this with you.

P.S.~ The higher-end diaper also have a good re-sell rate!

Friday, February 22, 2008

Back Home... again.

Does anyone notice a pattern or theme here... Samuel in the hospital. Jennifer in the hospital. Samuel in the hospital. Jennifer in the hospital. Maybe the boys are jealous of the attention Samuel is getting.

On a serious note. I got home a few hours ago. Was hungry and tired. So I ate and fell asleep. Sorry I didn't respond quicker of my release. I was just too exhausted. So I was having contractions and they were being monitored. I was given endocin (sp?) and an IV so I could be given some anti-nauseau medicine. The good news was that I was NOT dilating. I was given another dose of endocin this morning and more tummy meds and released. Still having contractions but nothing persistent and consistent like last nights.

Hmmm... it looks like I'm going to have to be more careful about what we do and where we go kind of stuff. So I decided to NOT got to my friends' shower and tomorrow I'll ask Mike to take Libby to her little friend's birthday party.

My friend Sonya is my hero! She stayed overnight with the kids and kept them this morning. her husband, Andy, was also a saint because he was willing to watch their two children so Sonya could be here with mine. It snowed like crazy last night so thankfully school was closed for Mike and Andy. I'm glad Mike didn't miss more school because of me.

Having reflux issues which they told me is common with women at the end of their pregnancies and the reason I'm experiencing it is because I have a belly as big as theirs. Yes, friends, I do once again have polyhydramneous. Dang! I thought I would avoid that.

Libby wants to keep seeing my "owie" from the IV. Mike's been watching the kids all afternoon... and poor man he has hardly slept. I know he's exhausted. Libby has been acting up so much. I think she is really stressed from all the changes and all the going ons around here. I think she's picked up on the stress and is dazed and confused.

The plan stands that the kids and I will be driving down in the van... Sonya (yeah-the hero), will be driving us down on March 2nd. Mike will take his car down. The next day (monday) mike and sonya will head back up to PA. I am so thankful my friend is willing to drive for me! What a huge blessing!

Well, I'm too tired to keep typing. Blessings on your day.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

going to the hospital to get checked out.


I've been having contractions. 4 in 20 minutes. Mike is taking his parents to the airport so my friend Sonya is going to come over and be with me. What a blessing. I hope I don't need to go to the hospital. Maybe my body will just calm down and stop freaking out. Here's hoping.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Trusting the Lord.

There are moments when I feel my weakness more keenly. This is one of those moments. I went to have another ultrasound yesterday as well as having a consultation with a high-risk doctor. I left there anxious and panicked. The boys are doing fine as far as we can see but once again I am having too much amniotic fluid. This is what happened with Samuel and it put me into labor at 26 weeks with him. One of the boys is a bit bigger than he's "supposed" to be. I'm measuring 38 weeks along. You are supposed to be bigger with twins.. but not that much bigger... again, what happened with Samuel. And with my swelling and contractions the doctor was concerned about pre-ecclampsia. She wanted my blood pressure taken and my cervix checked and a glucola test (test for gestational diabetes) run.

So today I went to my OBGYN and took the glucola test. I don't remember when I'm supposed to have the results on that. I also had my cervix checked and it's soft. I haven't dilated thankfully but it's not good that it's softening. I'm only 24 1/2 weeks pregnant. So I'm on modified bed-rest and have to be checked every 2 weeks with an ultrasound every 3 weeks. My blood pressure was perfect (praise God for that!) I will still need to be tested every couple of weeks for pre-ecclampsia. The mid-wife was kind and wonderful though. She encouraged me to rest and rest and rest. She reminded me that my main (and only) job right now is to grow two boys. She also helped me by getting the information for my OBGYN in Chesapeake and is calling them on my behalf to secure an appointment.

When I had called Chesapeake's office earlier they refused to make an appointmnent for me until I had insurance. She's calling to stress the dire need for me to have continuous care and have a smooth transition. I am so thankful that she is willing to be my advocate. What a mercy!

So the plan right now is for Mike to take the kids and I down to Va March 2nd... yes, a lot earlier than we had planned originally. He wants me to be down there in case I need extra help or need to be hospitalized. That way we'll have family and friends there to help us out with the kids. A definite blessing.

The Napiers flew in yesterday morning which was great- it enabled Mike to take me to the doctors and drop me off while he took Samuel to the pediatrician for his follow-up. Samuel is doing great. He still has a cough and is on 9 medicines but he's nowhere close to as bad as he was in the hospital.

Mike and I were able to go on a date last night. It was wonderful to have time to talk. We did some more registering at Target which was fun and we went to TJ Maxx and he got new pillows and bedding as a gift for me! If I have to be in bed all the time at least I get to be in a gorgeous looking comfy bed. The bedding is baby blue, chocolate brown and khaki... I LOVE it! And quality pillows really make a difference in my sleep.

Mike has also been really kind and comforting in the midst of all the stress. We were able to talk about our disappointmnet at not having a romantic week-end and marriage retreat. We also talked about Samuel's birthday and when we would celebrate and such. It's been such a crazy time with so much different complicated things going on.

Mike's plan will be to pack up the house and move without me being around so I w
on't be stressed out by moving. He doesn't even want me around when they unpack. He's so kind to take care of me that way.

This time of weakness and dependence on others has been trying. It's been hard to let others help me when I feel like it's something so simple. I had to humble myself and call someone today and ask if they would help me on Saturday walk up 3 flights of stairs so I can attend a baby shower. HUMBLING. Yet I am thankful when people are kind and gracious and help me. I know the Lord will sustain me and I need to take it one day at a time.

Right now I am so blessed to have the Napiers here to help out with the kids and let Mike take me to appointments.

On a fun note Baby A is 1 pound 13 oz. and Baby B is 1 lb. 8 oz. We think Baby A was conceived first so that could account for him being a little bigger.

Well, a nap is calling my name! I need to rest, rest, rest. Trying to avoid the hospital :)

24 weeks.

I'm trying to keep myself taking pictures of my growing womb. 24 weeks along. Woohoo. I keep praying for another 10 weeks at least... that would be great! I've lost my ankles this week and my hands feel so swollen too. I'm a marshmallow puff for sure! My mom was encouraging me though and said that when you look at me I'm "all baby", oops, "all babies"! :)

Old Navy.

Excuse my laziness. I've been using my apple photo booth to take pictures instead of my camera. I'm too tired to make too much effort and shoot the pictures and download them. That's why the pictures are grainy and fuzzy... my lack of effort :)

The only nice thing about this week-end was I had a little bit of girl time with Libby and my mom. We went out to IHOP and then went to the OLD NAVY baby/kids sale. I was tempted to get a ton of stuff but I stuck with some basics and necessary stuff. I was really excited by how much I saved. I bought Samuel and the twins coats for next winter. I found matching shirts for the 3 of them. I found the twins some cords and the cutest shirts with turtles on them that say "Thrill Seeker" (so appropriate for hunting with my dad for turtles, snakes, and frogs down at my parents farm). I found four adorable polo shirts for Samuel. I got all the boys new socks. I found a long-sleeve and tank-top for Libby as well as some boots for next year. The best part was seeing things ring up for $2, $3, $5. The coats were each $10... marked down from $42! And I found some shoes for the twins for fall/winter time. All for a total of $97. The grand total without the sales and discounts/mark-downs would have been $314. So I saved $217! I am so thankful because I realize that it's going to be pricey to clothe 4 children! Especially when two of them will probably be the same size!

Monday, February 18, 2008

Home, James.

We are HOME! Just got home about 15 minutes ago. I'm already laying in bed :) I've had several contractions throughout the day and I think I'm needing some rest so that we don't have to go to the hospital for me. Samuel was up till 4 a.m. crying and screaming. My mom and I slept at the hospital last night. Finally I was about to get up and rock him when my mom suggested trying to put him in bed with her. He fell asleep on and off lying propped up on her hip. The great thing is that he was drinking so much they took his IV out. The doctors prescribed ear drops at about 8 am and we finally got them at 9:45. After he got the ear drops he seemed to really relax.

He fell asleep on the notch between my hip and pregnant belly. He slept for four hours! After talking with the doctors they felt comfortable with sending him home. Right now he's on 6 different medications: amoxycillin, special ear drops, bethanegol (sp?), albuterol, flovent, and oral steroids.. not to mention Tylenol and Motrin. Our sweet little druggie.

We gave him a bath to help him feel fresh and then took him home.

I have a book and a box of chocolates. Time for a little TLC.

One of my favorite lines that's stuck in my head is the old,
"Where are we going?" (said by the chaffeur)
"Home, James."

Now, that's music to my ears!

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Children's Hospital of Philadelphia

Last night I actually went back to the house with my parents and Libby and got some sleep. i went to bed with a sinus headache but it seems to have disappeared this morning. Mike is still with Samuel in the hospital. When we talked last night he said that it seemed to him that Samuel was a little more comfortable. He had been throwing up his pain relievers all day... which is really bad because on top of croup, RSV, fever, asthma... he has an EAR INFECTION to boot! Just like Libby. So he was even throwing up his amoxycillin.

I think we'll take it easy this morning and return to the hospital. I look forward to hearing more of how he's doing.

On a good note some friends of ours came by and brought Samuel cupcakes to celebrate. Samuel was really happy to see my mom and let her rock him for several hours. He also got some presents from the hospital and a birthday cake. CHOP really does a good job of caring for kids.

Saturday, February 16, 2008

another update.

Today is Samuel's 2nd birthday. He's quite miserable poor guy. He has been found to be RSV positive. We're on the pulminary floor at CHOP and he's getting regular treatments. He was on oxygen all day yesterday. He had some breakfast this morning but threw it all up just a bit ago.

I'm exhuasted but Mike is worse. They didn't have a cot for him so he slept in a chair. I at least got to sleep on a couch/lounge seat. We are thankful though that he is NOT in ICU.

Thank you for your prayers.

Friday, February 15, 2008


talked with Mike. They're giving him supplemental oxygen. Debating on whether he needs to be in ICU. keep praying. On my way to hospital.

Samuel is in the hospital.

Dear friends,
Today has been a really rough day. Last night we all actually seemed to sleep. Well, I mean I didn't fall asleep until 2:45 but the point was Samuel sounded clearer and though he was coughing he wasn't throwing up. I had to change him at around 2 but he seemed to settle down afterwards.

Then there was this morning. He's been throwing up repeatedly. He's retracting deeply. Mike took him to the doctors and instead of being able to even come home to get me he had to rush to the hospital. Samuel is experiencing serious breathing distress.

Please be praying for him. He really looks peakish and I can tell his oxygen has been dropping. I am currently home with Libby. My mom just called to tell me that she and my dad are just going to drive up to be with Libby. I'm looking for a way to get to the hospital right now...

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Romantic Holidays... or the lack there of.

Our holidays in general tend to be eventful. Last Easter Samuel was in the hospital. For Libby's 2nd birthday Samuel was in the hospital. For December 7th (my sister's birthday) Samuel was in the hospital. Mike and I have a history of having very unromantic Valentine's Days and Anniversaries. They tend to be days full of turmoil, frustration, or being apart from each other. This Valentine's Day is no exception.

Samuel has been throwing up all afternoon and is absolutely miserable because of the oral steroids he's on. He's been screaming all day. Libby went to school today so that I could pack and clean and get ready for our trip. She came home screaming and wailing and throwing a temper tantrum.

so it looks like we won't be leaving until tomorrow. Visions of romance danced in my head... those visions have been replaced by carpet cleaner and dirty shirts. Mike and I are both covered in Samuel's fluids and frankly my dear things are just bad around here. I know some years later I will look back and laugh. For now I want to cry. The kids stuff is all packed. I just need to throw my stuff into a bag. Mike packed the car with boxes to be taken down to Va. Yet we are nowhere close to leaving with Samuel in this condition.

One of our plans was to have the car inspected while we were down there. Right now, that's not going to happen. Unless some miracle takes place it looks like we'll be spending another sleep-deprived night trying to console two tired, cranky children. Hopefully we can get an early start tomorrow.

for now I'm going to go see if I can convince Samuel to have some pedialyte.

Hope your day is full of love, romance, and all things mushy-gushy. The mushiest thing around here is the throw-up I have to clean up :) So do something for me- eat some chocolate or take a bath... or something fun and relaxing!

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Ear Infection, Asthma, & Croup, Oh My!

What a day. Or should I say, what a past 24 hours. we finally got our electricity back after 36 hours without it. What a blessing electricity is! the kids have been sick and sleeping terribly... and therefore Mike and I are two sleep deprived parents. We took the kids to the doctors this morning. Libby has an ear infection, a really bad one. Samuel's asthma is flaring and he has croup to top it off.

The plan for the day was to pack for our trip to VA. We were supposed to head out at soon as Mike finished his class at 4. Oh well for that plan :) Hopefully we'll get off tomorrow morning.

It snowed yesterday and it was wonderful to watch it fall. At times it was tiny delicate flakes. At other moments huge fluffy flakes that looked like chunks of cotton batting floating to the ground. it was really nice. Today it's raining and making the snow melt away. gloomy.

I'm learning more and more how important it is to let go of expectations I have for my life. My hopes for Valentine's tomorrow. My desire to leave tonight. Dealing with two small sick children. I'm having to in turn say, "Lord, what you have for me is just what I need. It's not always what I want but it's never more than I can handle with You helping me."

So, for now I'll just try and get through this day and thank the Lord for His blessings. health insurance. gas in the car. food for lunch. medicine for the kids. my valentine that I love so much. a trip to Va. hot chocolate. good doctors.

Monday, February 11, 2008

Bad Night.

Last night was a very windy night. Normally the howling of the wind doesn't disturb me and I can typically ignore it. But this particular night it was forcing our electricity on and off. I don't mind not having electricity at night... what I do mind is when our fire/smoke detectors go off. They're hooked up electrically so there are no batteries you can pull out. Instead it was chirping and making high pitched noises ALL night. Needless to say it was a sleep deprived night: predominantly for Mike and the children. He was up with them all through the night. We had an impromptu family party of milk and graham crackers from 1:00- 2:15. So we are a tired family today. Mike was so kind to let me get as much rest as I could. He's really a saint. So today's a kind of lay-low, chill day. That's what we're hoping for anyway.

Tomorrow is Libby's Valentine's Day party at school. She is quite excited and anticipating all the fun. I was planning on making home-made Valentine's with her and heart shaped cookies and that has been reduced to giving her classmates candy with a to and from on them :) And instead of making cookies I went to Trader Joe's and got a snack... Oh well for good intentions.

Almost passed out at the post office today. It was so WARM in there and I couldn't handle it. The dear man assisting me was on oxygen and it took him sometime to process the packages I was mailing and cards. I literally walked out of the office with no coat on because I needed the freezing cold to revive me... thankfully it worked. And did I mention it is so, so, so, so frigid cold outside!

We leave for Va in 2 days. We're driving down after Mike's class at 4 p.m. on Wed. I'm really looking forward to the marriage conference in Williamsburg and celebrating our little man's birthday. Samuel will be 2 on the 16th!

Well, off to fix mac n' cheese. Hope your day is peaceful and quiet.

The face scratcher.

Samuel got me today. He got me good. Those tiny nails are so sharp! He clawed completely across my face and got the corner of my eye. Blah. What a day. It's bitter cold and I do NOT want to have to go out again. I took Mike to work and came home and fed the kids and got them dressed and dropped Libby off at school. Tiger boy leapt into action...he

Saturday, February 09, 2008

By the way. All the floating you see those twins doing is not the real thing. It's more like rolling, punching, kicking, wrestling. A stream of never-ending movement. don't let the calm flow of the two on the screen fool you!

Stealing Ideas.

Katie- I totally copied from your blog the super cute image of watching my babies grow and giving myself a countdown! I couldn't help myself... it's really amazing.

I am marveling constantly at the movement I feel inside me. This morning I was awakened by rolling, punching, and kicking. It's amazing. These two little boys have already had hiccups and I think wrestle each other on a daily basis.

I'm about to go have coffee with my friend Sarah and am looking forward to talking abut cloth diapers, baby gear, and catching up on what's going on in her life. She has two boys. I really should glean some tips :)

Well, off to blow-dry my hair so I look semi-presentable. After my shower I had to sit down and recover myself. Yep, tired that quick. Scary, huh?

Friday, February 08, 2008

Crazy Cravings...

I have had some funny cravings as of late:

Chocolate Milk and Pickles.

Lemonade and Sweet Potatoes.

Not so weird but I have been loving Trader Joe's blintzes. They're dairy-free but delicious. I have them with strawberries.

Wish my sleep habits were better. Was up at 4:45 this morning and going to bed now at 12:20... oops.

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

Not all tummies are created equal...

There's my tummy at 22 weeks. The twins are kicking and moving ALL the time! Libby wanted to show you all the "baby" in her tummy. She saw me taking a picture on photobooth (MAC) and wanted to show of her tummy too.

You can see why I have to use a support belt...


Almost passed out at Target. What is going on? I had protein and had eaten breakfast. I was out alone with Samuel. Thankfully I sat down before the damage could be done. i drove to Libby's school to pick her up but I did have to have Mike leave school and come and get me and drive us home. I had started seeing black around the edges and stars. Yesterday I almost passed out in the bathroom. All this to say I'm wondering if I should be driving right now. I'm having Mike take me to my doctor's appointment tomorrow.

I wonder if my blood pressure is dropping or blood sugar. Someone told me that one of their children would caught off blood-flow to the aorta so she was put on bed-rest for two months. I had assumed this would be a one time experience and that I had learned my lesson about eating too much sugar. I find that I can only stand and walk a few minutes before I need to sit down again.

On a positive note, we got Samuel eating yogurt again. His therapist Sheila had him fingerpaint with colored frosting and he tasted it and loved it. So I got a bowl of vanilla yogurt and died it like the frosting and he ate the whole bowl! I don't like the thought of my son eating artificial color and dyes but right now I'm just trying to get him to EAT!

I'm exhausted so I'm going to bed.

Sunday, February 03, 2008

I'll pass on passing out.

Today was the strangest experience of my pregnancy. I woke up and got ready for church and had the same dilemma I've had as of late... what to eat. I have really noticed my body responds extremely negatively to a lot of sugar and that I need protein. Sometimes though I don't feel like eating anything but I know my body needs fuel. Sunday morning is usually oatmeal. We cook quaker oats and add brown sugar and walnuts and a little milk. There wasn't time for that today so I grabbed a bowl of cereal. a bowl of super-sugary cereal. cinnamon toast crunch was the culprit of the day. I also slipped a protein bar into my purse on the way out the door. I'm usually good about supplementing protein whether through a shake or a bar when I don't have time for the real stuff like eggs or cheese or peanut-butter, beans... you get the point. We had to get out the door because we were meeting someone after the first session and before the second session at church.

When we got to church we took the kids to their classes and went upstairs to join in worship. By the time I climbed the last stair I could feel my heart racing and pounding in my ears. I felt like I had just done 30 minutes of cardio and sprinted for the last 5 but all I had done was walk up 2 flights of stairs. I felt a little woozy and was relieved when about 5-10 minutes later I could sit down.

Mike and I were waiting to meet up with a gentleman from the church who was in charge of the car ministry program at church. The church is providing Mike with a vehicle (to KEEP!) so that he'll be able to travel back and forth from VA to PA. (this church is amazing!) So anyway, we were waiting for him just for a little while between the sessions. The gentleman came out and we went back outside so he could show us the car. A nice Honda Accord was waiting for us outside. I was really excited but then started feeling really weird. Mike and the gentleman kept chatting but I kept feeling weirder and weirder. I felt like I was about to throw up and then things started spinning. We were standing outside on the pavement and I was afraid I was about to pass out. I was really embarrassed but I grabbed Mike's arm. I told him I thought i was going to throw up or faint. Mike and the other man helped me to the side and I sat on the grass trying to breathe deeply. Literally everything was going black. I wasn't even wearing a coat and I had started to sweat profusely. Finally my head cleared and the sweat stopped pouring.

One of Mike's friends from seminary assisted me with Mike back upstairs and I sat and ate my protein bar and continued to drink water. Unfortunately though we had to leave after worship because I was so dizzy and faintish. Mike asked me what I wanted to eat. I just wanted a hamburger... I think I was really needing some protein.

So anyway, I'm back home now. Still a little embarrassed but a lot less faintish and am in bed. it's been interesting this pregnancy how vulnerable I feel and susceptible I seem to be to such little things. The other day while I was in Target I started to get dizzy. I guess I really need to cut back on doing the normal everyday type of stuff. I am so thankful I didn't pass out or throw-up. I can feel the boys kicking and moving around a lot so I know that they're okay.

I guess I'll just pass on passing out.

Saturday, February 02, 2008

Black Bean & Corn salsa.

For the Superbowl party tomorrow I am making my favorite salsa. I made some today just for snacking on.

My favorite salsa:

one can of corn
one can of black beans
chopped red onion
chopped fresh cilantro
a dash of olive oil
a dash of cumin
fresh squeezed lime juice
clove of garlic- pressed

Mix and serve with chips. I love this salsa with blue corn tortilla chips. You can also serve with chicken or part of a yummy Mexican dish.

P.S.~ Don't eat while surfing on your laptop and pregnant. You could potentially spill corn and beans on laptop... twice, um, like me.

Article up.

thanks Danielle for even reminding me that my article is up! I wrote about my experience of falling in love with Jesus. You can read my latest article on Ungrind called "Wooed Over Italian." Hope you enjoy.

Friday, February 01, 2008

Happy February!

Greetings from the buddha belly. Where once my belly button was an "innie" but is now an "outie". Where my stretch marks are large and in charge thanks to my darling son Samuel and my overstretched tummy of last pregnancy...

Happy February. I know it sounds funny but with the coming of a new month I feel some relief. I am getting closer. I feel like I'm in a race and trying to get to the end feels far off but I want to persevere and make it.

I am really, really tired. The boys are literally kicking the crap out of me. They're kicks are so strong and frequent it's making me nauseous. Yet with every kick I am grateful for the lives of these boys. Grateful that they're growing stronger and bigger. These guys really need to play soccer or something...

Off to bed. Just finished watching Spellbound, an extremely interesting documentary about the national championship spelling bee.

Well, goodnight then.