Showing posts from February, 2007

Growing Up.

This picture was taken shortly after my sister's death. Mike and I had gone to Paris to spend time with a friend and to clear our heads and get away from the "in-our-face" grief/pain that was present at the time.

I feel like I've grown up. In some ways I'm so thankful. In some ways it's been a painful process, one that often had a lot more "growing pains" than I thought I was meant to handle. 1 Corinthians 13: 11 says "When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. 12 For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known." I know I have many childish ways left in me, but there is part of me that has grown. Sometimes it's been a rude awakening. My ignorant bliss has been lost. Suffering is not a fun experience but it is a growing one. Through the loss of my si…

Surprise Visitor

Today we had a surprise visitor. There was a knock on the door and we went to answer it thinking that it would be a FexEx package or something from UPS but instead there was a young woman with a camera. She asked if she could come and take some pictures of the house. She had a college project (she was majoring in photography at the art school across the street from us) and was to take pictures of places she used to live. Apparently she lived in the house a year ago. So, of course I am thinking, sure the kitchen and dining room are in relative order... that would be fine.

What she needed pictures of was the bedrooms upstairs. Of course I am in the midst of projects: getting all the kids clothes packed up that don't fit, re-organizing my part of the office upstairs and our bedroom has 6 loads of laundry on the floor that need to be washed.... so talk about embarassing. A perfect stranger in the house, in the places you least expect. I'm thinking, hmm, have I cleaned the b…


Do you ever have those days in your life where you are struggling? Maybe you feel delicate? You feel like you could be crushed so easily. I've been having those weeks, months, or more appropriately years. Since the death of my sister I have found that I can be crushed in two seconds flat... by a song, by a comment, by a friend. I've had so many vivid dreams of my sister lately and I wake up almost every morning crying because the moment before I could touch her and talk to her and hug her. I wake up and realize that it was just a dream. I try to remind myself that God's grace is sufficient for me and His power is made perfect in my weakness. Wow, He must be super strong right now because boy I am weak!

Weakness issues: overeating. I've been doing really well with being disciplined in eating and exercising... the last 10 days or so would be the exception. I feel like I'm going crazy and trying to satisfy myself in food instead of God. It's a terribl…

One of those mornings.

There is no picture for today and you will be glad of it. I woke up this morning with a headache. So did Mike. He got up and was trying to rush out the door, almost late for school. I had Libby with me downstairs and was trying to let Samuel sleep. I decide that I was going to exercise and picked a 30 minute video as opposed to my 60 min. one. Well, not 5 minutes into it Libby is yelling and freaking out. So, I stop fix her some breakfast, make sure every possible need could be met and resume. Then the kettle goes off with its piercing whistle. Mike is unavailable to tend to it so I head into the kitchen, pour the steaming water into his coffee press and stir. Set timer for 4 minutes.

Mike comes down. He starts making fun of my exercise instructor on the DVD. Okay, she's a bit toned to put it mildly. Mike said, "She looks like she would beat you up if you wouldn't be her girlfriend." So, she's got more muscle than most guys but it's a great wor…

My guys.

These are two of my absolute favorite people in the world. Samuel just turned 1 yesterday. Hip, hip, hurray. I love this picture because it reminds me of how much these two love each other. Samuel, just goes crazy over his papa...oh and eating the tv remote!

Girl Time.

Sometime's there is nothing sweeter than time with my girl. We both have a thing for cookies... who doesn't? Especially when they're warm and with a cup of cold milk. Libby also happens to be pretty crazy about cookie dough. This is one of my favorite ways to do cookies. We didn't have a lot of time before Samuel would wake up from his nap... so I just used this container from Trader Joe's. Oh so yum. I am so thankful to have my two precious children. I am thankful that I have been given the privilege to train these two little ones and hopefully help them to grow to love God and to glorify Him with their lives. I'm also thankful for the special times I get to spend with my kids one-on-one. Libby and I did a lot of laughing and I got down on the kitchen floor and tickled her a bit. I know that these kinds of times are ones that I won't regret. I won't look back later and say, "Why wasn't the kitchen floor clean?" or "If on…

While the Princess sleeps, the prince will play.

One day while Libby was taking a nap Samuel got a hold of Libby's wand. Whenever she has her wand, she calls herself a "princess". "I, Princess, Mama!" Libby will snatch the wand away from Samuel whenever she seems him with it. But this time around she was sleeping.

New York City

Mike and I left the kids with his parents and drove to New Jersey where we proceeded to take a train to New York City. We thought we were going to have a good time but we had no idea how GREAT of a time we were going to have. We stayed at a friend's place in Manhattan. These dear people gave up their home to us, vacated their gorgeous, posh, apartment so that we could have a romantic early Valentine's night. Mike and I got into NYC just after noon. We took the subway to Manhattan and enjoyed a delicious lunch of French cusine at Les Deux Gamins on W. 4th street. I had a fabulous salad and Quiche Lorraine. And the bread was so French. It's hard to find good French food here in the States.

We took the afternoon off and just relaxed with our friends David and Susan at their apartment. That night they took us to an absolutely amazing Russian restaraunt/bar called Pravda.

(Pravda is an underground Caviar Bar that prides itself in serving the best Cocktails and Martinis…

Getting down on the farm.

Sometimes there's nothing better than getting down on the farm. One of Libby's favorite things to do when she goes to my parents is to ride the TRACTOR! Libby and Grandpa go for a ride around the pond. This time around my mom hopped on to! Oh what fun it is to ride on a tractor.

I'm missing Virginia and the friends and family there. I love and miss you all!

Emmy and Libby.

This is one of my favorite pictures. It's so fun to see Libby and Emily interact together. Em is such a fun cousin. She's creative with her sewing and designs the coolest stuff! She's playing basketball this season. Go, Em Go! She's great with Libby and Samuel. One of my favorite memories with Emily is when I drove out to her house with the kids (an hour away with traffic) so we could get pancakes at IHOP. I don't know how this was humanly possible but I managed to forget my diaper bag (which had my wallet in it) and so we were left with emergency money in the car and some money that Emily had. We made it work. We all ate. Amazingly enough I found some emergency diapers and formulat stashed in the back of the car from our last trip to the hospital. Praise God! In spite of her cousin being forgetful we had a great time. We miss you Emily!

Methods of Biblical Change.

My Textbooks.

So I started my first class at Westminster last night. It meets for 3 hours... and it was a fast three hours! I am so excited to be learning under Dr. Paul David Tripp. He's a great teacher and very wise. He also has a passion for Jesus Christ and ministering to people through counseling. I feel like part of the reason I'm up here is so that I can take this course. I so look forward to sharing how God speaks to me through this class. It's going to be a lot of work though. A paper is due every week and during every class we break down into community groups and work through cases together as well as work on changing our own hearts... yikes. Just excited and wanted to share.

3 a.m. and other "Magical Moments"

The Culprits. Yes, they look innocent enough :)

Well, we started off on the wrong foot by going to bed after 1 a.m. So what were we expecting? Yes, we are indeed gluttons for punishment. I heard the crying first. It was Samuel, it was 3 a.m. Then comes the siren-Libby. Now by this point Mike stirs. I try to explain to him that Samuel woke up first who in turn woke up his sleeping sister. I don't realize how muffled I sound (I'm wearing ear plugs). Mike's response is, "I'll get Libby and put her in bed with us." so I said okay but was wondering what he would do with Samuel. So Libby comes in bed. I'm getting frustrated after the 50th (or so) "Hello Mama!" Samuel is still crying, Mike is sleeping. So he didn't do anything with Samuel (anything meaning change diaper or give him a bottle.) So I get up and get Samuel, he's completely soaked. So I grab some pajamas.... the ones that you have to fit over the head, not zip ups or b…