Showing posts from April, 2011
Okay, so Samuel had surgery and chemo and came home on Wednesday night. Thursday was a special lunch with Mike's family and extended family. Thursday was bachelor night. Friday was rehearsal and rehearsal dinner. Saturday was the wedding and reception. Monday we had some of Mike's family over for a pancake brunch. Whew. Barely a moment to catch one's breath.

We discovered that the one vehicle that holds our whole family is in need of some major repairs ($1,400) just to pass inspection. Thankfully we're borrowing my in-laws car... no air conditioning... which is hot but fine when we get moving. The poor babes are covered in sweat when we travel.

But then the a.c. isn't working at the house. So, it's the land of heat. Hot at home. Hot when you travel. I have come to realize I don't like being hot. I get irritable and cranky and everyone's tempers are prone to flare.

I took Samuel to the clinic today while Mike taught. He did really well. Bandage changed. Blo…
What on earth am I doing up? I'm wasting valuable sleep time. But the dog is barking because the moon is full. I'm lost in the rhythmn of listening to Peter snore. My eyes are glazed over and I'm ready to sleep. The night is a bit warm and balmy but thankfully the fan is running.


Samuel has surgery tomorrow. His CVL cuff has come through so it needs to be put back in... if unsuccesful they will have to put in a new CVL... we hope that's not the case.

Samuel will then stay overnight and get chemo. Hopefully he'll come home Wednesday night... at the latest Thursday morning. Thursday wedding festivities commence and friday is rehearsal and dinner. Saturday is the wedding.

With Mike, Libby, and Samuel in the wedding it will be busy. Easter is Sunday. This week is spring break but with all that's going on I don't think it will be much of a break. I'm tired just thinking about it.

The twins completely enjoyed their birthday party yesterday. They had a lot …
So Samuel just handed me something. He said, "look Mommy it's shaped like a candy cane." It is. But it's a dried shriveled up worm. Do you know that worms make me sad. It's not as though I have some affinity for them in general but everytime I walk up my sidewalk and see these dead dried out shriveled worms my heart gets sad. Weird I know. It's not like I feel bad when I squish a spider or an ant... but it's like I know these worms died some horrible death... drowning in the flooded underground and then dying baking in the sun once they have made it to the surface. What a horrible way to go.

The twins are 3 today!

I have had so much going on. Samuel has been screaming and crying a lot the past two days. He's been in a lot of pain. A combination of constipation, nausea and trying to work out what's going on. It's been awful. Actually this has been going on the last several weeks. It tears my guts out. In fact I slipped outside last night and b…
What is with me and my desire for perfection? I wish I could understand it better. I freak out if things don't go according to plan. I beat myself if I don't anticipate everything perfectly... utterly ridiculous. It's as if I think I'm God.... or that God expects me to be God. I am a creature. Weak, imperfect and in desperate need of perfection. And that perfection is found in Him. Not in me. Not in my frail attempts to get it right.

Take a deep breath. Live. That's what I have to repeat to myself.

I want to do it "right". All of it. Every part of my life. Mother. Daughter. Sister. Wife. Aunt. Niece. Friend. Role model. Home maker. I want to do things perfect: Exercise. Meal choices. How I dress. How I care for my kids, my home, my car. How I love my husband.

Sometimes I wonder if God has fashioned my life in such a way that with my present reality I am reminded of my need for Him. I think I would be so independent and self-sufficient if I had less challeng…

Call me Auntie Jennifer.

Oh dear Lord. I posted on FB but forgot to mention on my blog that my niece was born! Where is my head????? Or did I mention and forget? I don't think so. Wow. You should be worried. Yes.... I am that tired! I was also in the hospital with Samuel so things got a little crazy.

Madison Rhea Wratten

March 29, 2011
6 lbs, 13 oz.
21 1/2 inches long
4:57 a.m.

(precious and dearly loved!)

Kristin and Madison are home and doing well. Kristin is recovering from a looooooong but unproductive labor and c-section. She might not feel great but she looks great and is doing a wonderful job. She is a super Mommy!

Madison is a dollie. She has beautiful dark hair and lovely coloring. She is so long and slender. She reminds me of Libby that way. She smiles all the time... which is crazy weird (at this early) but fun. I am totally smitten with this little girl. I'm really proud of Christopher and Kristin and so happy to have us all in the house together.

Confessions of a mouse gone wild.

So I’m a little paranoid. I’m sitting on my bed with my feet crossed and I don’t want to touch the ground. I knew we had some kind of rodent problem. I’ve done my best to secure almost every food item in hard plastic containers in the pantry. They will bust into (okay, technically chew or gnaw into) hard cardboard boxes of our wholesale items… granola bars, cereal. I mean the tough kind of cardboard… the “double bagged” stuff.

I have my packaged instant oatmeal out of the cardboard box it comes in and in Tupperware for goodness sakes!

But, they have crossed the line.

Last night I saw them TWICE in my bedroom. I thought it was a rat because it was relatively large. Today I met the culprit.. but that was before they crossed the line… I digress.

My favorite treat is dark chocolate peanut butter cups. They are not sold in a bag but in a package of 2 and can only be found at the check out counter of specific stores… Target, 7-11, and recently I found them at the Dollar Tree. But not everyone…


I love this song. It's really encouraging. Definitely experiencing the raindrops.

Blessings- Song lyrics by Laura Story

We pray for blessings, we pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering

All the while You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You're near?

What if trials of this life
Are Your mercies in disguise?

We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough

And all the while You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears?
And what if a thousand sleeple…