Saturday, October 08, 2016

The Heavens Declare the Glory of God

“The heavens declare the glory of God; the skies proclaim the work of his hands. Day after day they pour forth speech; night after night they display knowledge. There is no speech or language where their voice is not heard. Their voice goes out into all the earth, their words to the ends of the world.” (Psalm 19:1-4)

“Ask the animals, and they will teach you, or the birds of the air, and they will tell you; or speak to the earth, and it will teach you, or let the fish of the sea inform you. Which of these does not know that the hand of the Lord has done this? In his hand is the life of every creature and the breath of all mankind.” (Job 12:7-10)

“Praise the Lord from the heavens, praise him in the heights above. Praise him, all his angels, praise him, all his heavenly hosts. Praise him, sun and moon, praise him, all you shining stars. Praise him, you highest heavens and you waters above the skies. Let them praise the name of the Lord, for he commanded and they were created. He set them in place for ever and ever; he gave a decree that will never pass away.” (Psalm 148:1-6)

Friday, October 07, 2016

Beware the white whale...

"'Whosoever of ye raises me a white-headed whale with a wrinkled brow and a crooked jaw; whosoever of ye raises me that white-headed whale, with three holes punctured in his starboard fluke- look you, whosoever of ye raises me that same white whale, he shall have this gold ounce, my boys!'" ~ Moby Dick

Thursday, October 06, 2016

Lyrics of my Life.

Settle down. Gather round children. Come to the table and color as we listen to words spoken aloud. Words that transport us to another place, another space, another time. And as they calm, poking the play-doh with toothpicks and making impressions with loose change; here a nickel, there a penny, the words saturate in their brains, the images coming to life. Each one's head filled with a different picture. 

I gather and sigh and breathe.  I pick up my skein and knitting needles and lose myself in the story. Greek and Roman gods. Mythology from a time long past. From a culture whose echoes reverberate into the present. 

The dishes sit in the sink. The laundry complains. It's mountainous avalanche threatening to cascade. But the muffins were delicious and the butter melted on them while they were still warm. 

The sticky faces and dirty hands abscond out the back door until this evenings bath calls to them. Serenading them sweetly with the promises of bubbles and splashing and pretensions of pirate play. 

Though the sweeping was done just hours before, new piles of what-nots litter the floor. Here a cheerio. There a scrap of cardboard and construction paper. The table sticky with glue and glitter. 

The crockpot bubbling merrily filling the air with enticing aromas that will sadly not be savored. Cries of delight or protests of disgust... this is what occurs when there are five children afoot. Alternative PB&J is offered, only if made by the disagreeing party or else to bed... with no food. Make your choice.

The brushing of teeth. The giggling. The scrapes to be bandaged. The late night hours of work and planning. Building dreams. Budgeting means. Creating anew. The joy of parenting. The heartache of this world. The pain of loved ones that are hurting. The scary diagnosis. The unspoken future. 

The soft breath on my cheek as my child slips in my bed under my covers and falls into deep slumber only to awaken me at an early hour. The cold toes that touch me in the night. 

The warmth of blankets pulled high. The smell of coffee freshly ground. The hope that comes from Christ. Exhale. Inhale. Repeat.

Tomorrow has enough worries of it's own, I dare not borrow them for today. Instead I pause and sink in the moment. Capture the memory like a fleeting butterfly. Beautiful but won't last forever. Encapsulate with a picture or allow my brain to open and close like a shutter preserving this moment to be remembered or forgotten at a later time. 

The distant humming of song in the distance. The sound of broken glass for the 4th time in 24 hours. The thrumming of the dryer. The wheels continue to churn. Pressing on. 

The wet cloth on the warm forehead. Tender words spoken softly. The soup warmed. The tears wiped. 

They bounce back. Eyes bright. Bounding outdoors. Seeking adventures. More stories to be made and then told. The mischief managed. The lion tamed. The alligator caught. 

And dark turns to light... the morning comes with all it's promises hovering on the horizon. The hope of a new day. The promise of a clean slate. The reminder that all is being made new. And as my tea steeps in my favorite cup I ponder my life and think... I am blessed. The darkness has not overcome me. My strength is in the Lord. This day will be surrendered to the One who knows all the days. And I breathe in... and I breathe out.

Monday, October 03, 2016

Cancer and our friend Coleson

I had the honor and privilege of attending camp at Joni and Friends this summer in North Carolina. It was an amazing time that was a tremendous respite and refreshment for our family. One of the highlights for us was getting to know our short term missionaries who served as one-on-one assistants for Michael and Samuel. What was so special is that they are brothers! And in fact their Mom and other brother was at camp.

Cade and Coleson spent so much time with Michael and Samuel. I was so amazed to see these boys so selflessly give of themselves. And not only did they care for the kids that had special needs but they played and helped us with all of our fabulous 5.

Samuel and Coleson

One of the things that struck me was the special bond I could see between Cade and Coleson. You see  as a young child Coleson was diagnosed with Diamond Blackfan Anemia (“DBA”). DBA is a rare inherited bone marrow failure syndrome, characterized by a failure of the bone marrow (the center of the bone where blood cells are made) to produce red blood cells. This failure causes DBApatients to become severely anemic.

And the beautiful thing is his older brother Cade was his donor. These guys are amazing, talented sweet guys.

They were servant hearted and worked tirelessly to give Mike and I breaks. They did incredible things like climbing up humungous rock walls and zip lining with our boys. Cade even ended up participating in Michael's portion of the Talent Show. It was such an epic night for us. 

Their act of serving us gave me excitement that maybe one day my family in turn could be a blessing to others. That we would be able to extend ourselves to bless others with special needs.

So the rest of the summer flew by in a whirlwind and I was not up to date with the Shaw family until recently when on Facebook I heard some very difficult news. Our friend Coleson has cancer. He actually has the same cancer Samuel was diagnosed with, rhabdomyosarcoma.

So I ask all of you to be praying for Coleson and the whole Shaw family as they go through this treatment with him.

I know it is not a coincidence that God put this family and ours in the same place and the same time. My heart breaks for them as I know the difficult journey that lies ahead. I also know that this family loves Jesus and knows Him personally. Their faith is incredible.

Jesus please strengthen Coleson. Protect him during his chemo treatments. Shrink the tumor in his pelvic region. Help him bear and manage the pain. Give him favor with doctors and staff. help him adjust to this new "normal" that will affect so many aspects of his life. Provide and meet every physical, spiritual, emotional, mental and financial need that they have. Give comfort and encouragement and rest and peace in spite of such turbulent times. Favor them with friends and support and love and comfort. Lord, heal our friend Coleson. Thank you that you love him and have promised to never leave or forsake him. Comfort and strengthen him and his family. In your Name Jesus we pray, Amen.

Thursday, August 25, 2016

Change and Transformation

I have been loving this new season of my life: traveling all over the country, engaging in training, growing mentally and physically stronger and gaining new perspective on life.


This year I have been to Missouri, flown to LA and driven to Phoenix, seen the Grand Canyon, gone to the ocean numerous times, experienced almost two weeks in Nashville, trips taking me to North Carolina and the western part of VA, and a special time in the mountains of N.C. at camp with my family and I just got back a couple weeks ago from my travels to Florida. 

The word God gave me at the beginning of this year has been abundance! To look at our circumstances you would think it would be anything but... and yet this truly has been a year of exceeding abundance for me. I have seen God provide time and time again. He makes a way when there was no way.  

Our circumstances would have you think that we lack options and choices but the new vision God has given me allows me to see these situations as opportunities. I don't have control over the things we face but I do have control on how I see them and how I respond. My heart is so full of joy and peace in the midst of crazy unknowns. 

This isn't wishful thinking. This is God providing and leading me to every step. I have never been more excited about the future. I'm marveling at the beauty and greatness of our God. I'm overwhelmed by the majesty of His creation and inspired by the works of His hands. 

A few months ago we experienced another "scare" as we thought Samuel's cancer had returned. The doctors were extremely concerned and even calling the oncologist. And through it all I knew that God had Samuel. That He would sustain Samuel for whatever purpose He has for him. Samuel, had asked me as we were waiting for an ultrasound to be performed, "Mom, Is this really bad?" I was able to tell him, "Samuel, whatever this is, God has you. You are His. And we don't need to be afraid because He has an amazing plan for your life. No matter how "bad" they say it is, God has you and has promised that He will always be faithful and will never leave or forsake you."

Hallelujah! All was well. 

Mike and I have experienced deep heartache and struggles in our life together. We have tasted grief and sorrow. And yet this merciful God has healed us. Has strengthened us. Has renewed us. Has kept us. Has reminded us again and again of His faithfulness. 

If you were to look at our situation you wouldn't think all is well but I see God moving, I see the provision coming, I see the tides changing. I am no bereft of hope. I am planted firmly and held by the One who holds the stars. 

My prayer for you today is that whatever you are facing today that you can give it to God. I am asking that He will change and renew your mind and thoughts for His purposes. May His truth reign in your heart and mind. Jesus said that He came to give life and life abundantly. Asking God that in whatever you're experiencing you can find joy and renewed strength in Him and the courage to press forward and know His deep and abiding love for you.

Take hope friends. We are not in this walk alone. As terrible as your suffering may be it is not eternal, it is temporary if you belong to Christ. A beautiful message was shared during a ladies tea at Joni and Friend's Camp. The speaker said, "We don't rejoice in the wreck. But we rejoice in the One who redeems the wreck."

And in that, I do rejoice in the Redeemer. He is restoring and making beautiful things from ashes in my life. What an amazing God we have!

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Wednesday, March 02, 2016


I love my life.

It's at times intense, overwhelming, and challenging, but never boring but I love it. It's full but I love what I do. I love being a mom to 5 brilliant, bright, beautiful and bold babes! I love teaching them at home. I love getting to meet new people. I love growing healthier. I love learning new things. I love writing. And I'm loving my home-based business!

It's been a long time I feel like I could say I love my life. It's been hard for a long time... and in many ways that hardness hasn't changed. We still deal with special needs. We still are managing trying finances, we still live in a house where there are too many bugs, a broken dishwasher, a half working dryer, a leak in Libby's ceiling and the car is in the auto shop... We still have brokenness and disagreements. I still face grief every day with the loss of my sister and nephew.... with the loss of what my life would have been. Mike travels for work and is gone a lot and then there's the bigger issue if there's no work.

But I'm abundantly rich. Abundant with friendships and relationships. Abundant with good memories old and new. I'm seeing God's hand and His provision in so many things. He's giving me strength despite difficulties. He's guiding me and leading me and growing me.

He's planted this seed of hope deep in my heart... and I see it sprouting and about to bloom.

I see His transformation in me and I'm thrilled at the butterfly I am becoming!

I am thankful for God... for His love, His grace, His blessing, His provision, His faithfulness. My security is sweet and stable... it's in Him. In His never changing, never failing, never stopping love and the fact that He is not just a promise maker but a promise keeper!

Life isn't "easy" but it's worth it. I'm thankful to be alive. I'm thankful that God hasn't given up on me... that my husband hasn't either... thankful that my kids forgive me when I screw up.

John 10:10 tells us in Jesus' own words, " The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly."

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    "the plant grows abundantly in the wild"
    • extremely.
      "my boss made it abundantly clear that if I didn't like it, I should look for another job"

present in great quantity; more than adequate; oversufficient:
an abundant supply of water.
well supplied with something; abounding : 
a river abundant in salmon.
richly supplied, as with resources:
an abundant land.

I look forward to what lies ahead knowing that the best is yet to come!

Wednesday, February 24, 2016

A Happy, Healthy Birthday Wish!

I love that as a community we can work together to help change lives. Instead of looking the other way and dismissing people's needs we can accomplish so much more by linking arms and blessing those around us.

I know what it is to be in need. Walking through the loss of my sister and nephew,  Samuel's cancer, Michael's special needs. I know what it is to struggle financially and to struggle with my health. Juice Plus+ has been a tool that has produced so much change in my life and the life of my family.

I want to help gift my friend, Cheryl, who has been having chronic and serious medical and health issues for over a decade.

I'm eager to help her by jumpstarting her with nutrition! Would you be willing to give $5 or $10 to help her have a healthy and happy Birthday?! You can make a donation below.


I'm having a FB
party to give people the opportunity to learn more about JuicePlus+ and what concentrated fruits and vegetables can do you for your immune system, endocrine, respiratory, and cardiac systems.

Please feel free to join us in wishing Cheryl a Happy and Healthy Birthday on FB.