Showing posts from May, 2014

A Day at the Beach...

A few weeks ago we took our first outing to the beach in a long time... Just LIBBY, SAMUEL AND PETER and some other friends while the twins were in school. Sorry Ian and Michael!

Skinny Dip and Comics

We got to celebrate earlier this month with free comic books on comic book day and our first time at the Skinny Dip. We had a blast! I love that all my littles could fit around a table for themselves.

A quote on motherhood...


Trusting God in spite of Me.

I really wonder if I should change my blog to MESSES WITH JENNIFER instead of Musings by Jennifer. It would probably be more accurate.

In the past 24 hours or so I have found an alien in my washing machine. Stepped in multiple "puddles" of oatmeal in bare feet. Helped clean up a dodgeball-while-eating-cheerios fiasco. Tripped on a T-rex. Slipped on ice from my six year old accidentally dumping out the ice box onto the kitchen floor. Slept on a flashlight. Found a bucket of pee in the closet (and no, I'm not exaggerating, unfortunately-SURPRISE). A lego in my bra (at the dentist office... awkward).

Not much in my life is "orderly" or "ideal"... and I'm continuing to remind myself that that's okay.

I don't like things being messy and out of order which would probably surprise you if you've been to my house because my house is very out of order :)

I am proof of the war and struggle with brokenness, living in a sinful and fallen world, and …

Ditch the Standards, Keep the Kids.

It's funny how our standards have changed. What used to be being a good Mom meant that you fed your kids, you read them books, you changed their diapers til they were potty trained. You did their laundry. etc.

Now the standard has been raised, Now you need to be the ultimate homemaker, throw the most amazing birthday bashes, cook the most delicious organic, gluten-free, allergy-free meals, run marathons, be the perfect resource for all academic needs, drive kids to dance and sports and music lessons and language classes, run their own business, all while staying full of energy, looking fit with perfect hair and make-up and having enough leftover to take care of all their spouses needs. You know what I'm talking about...

It's no wonder we moms are tired. We have ridiculous expectations put on ourselves by ourselves and by society. This isn't realistic.

What if instead we thought... "I'm a sinner in desperate need of a Savior. I need Jesus wholly and completely. …

Encounters with God and other 3 a.m. happenings...

Last night I woke up at 3:13 a.m. I could not fall back asleep. Fortunately, I had fallen asleep early the previous night... like 7 p.m.

So I got up and decided, hey, I will do what we needed to do in the morning. So I spent an hour making stuff and preparing for a drive to the country in the morning before sunrise.

During this time I of preparation and driving I felt God was speaking to me. Speaking to me specifically about my role as a Mom. I had literally complained earlier that day that "I'm sick and tired of being everyone's personal slave."

And so I was talking to God about that and I felt him gently nudge me....

"I came to be the servant of all..."

"Um, God, I can't do that. I can't even literally serve my 5 kiddos..."

Mark 9:35 says, "And he sat down and called the twelve. And he said to them,“If anyone would be first, he must be last of all and servant of all.

"God, it seems your Kingdom is not in line with my thinking. …

Strong Enough...

I was realizing that I like to shield people from pain. I like to bear the brunt of it or somehow make their life easier, better. That's not a bad thing but my husband was encouraging me that sometimes I need to let people experience pain, difficulty and struggle so that they can grow. That was really hard for me to grasp, especially regarding my children. Actually it's taken me several months to understand what he's been getting at. He's not being masochistic as I had originally thought. He's not saying create suffering he's saying sometimes we need to allow it.

I thought of a baby Joey in a Mama Kangaroo's pouch. It has to have the strength to pull itself up and out in order to survive. In the same way a baby chick has to peck its way out of the shell. If you "help" these babies by pulling them out or opening their shells you are killing them. They don't have the strength and the ability, what they need to survive. They learn endurance and ga…

Pretty in Pink



A few weeks before Easter my boys and I took an outing the zoo. The funny part was they all decided it would be best to wear bunny ears. Believe me, if having four boys out at the zoo didn't get us attention, the bunny ears sure did!

Isn't she lovely!!!

My Grandma and I have a pretty special relationship. With each other we like to "tell it how it is". I think one of the things I'm so thankful for is the fact that I honestly consider my Grandma my friend. I always felt listened to her by her even at a small age. I still continue to remind her that I'm her #1 (because after all I am her first grandchild). It's a running joke.
I'm also thankful because my Grandma and I are alike in many ways. Creative. Love to beautify our surroundings. We each have 5 kids. And we've both been through hell, I mean trials, at times. LOL. Sorry Grandma, but it's true. More importantly we also know that we are God's children, daughters of the King of Kings. We've seen and experienced time and again God's faithfulness and goodness in our lives. 
I love you Grandma!!!!!
How blessed am I to have both my Grandmothers alive and in my life. Both women who love Jesus and have taught me the importance of prayer and G…

The Beauty of Surrender

I have to be honest. I have not been doing well lately. I guess that's no surprise if you read my last post. Combination of hormones, sick kids, crazy banking situation last week, among other things...Just at a low.... But here's the thing... God met me tonight.

Literally, met me in kitchen at 10:30 p.m. while I cleaned up Peter's and Michael's "spice of life" experiment. Which meant them getting out of bed when they were supposed to be sleeping and dumping entire bottles of garlic powder, cinnamon, peppercorns, 2 jars of pumpkin pie spice, nutmeg, cupcake sprinkles, Lawry's Seasoned Salt, icecream sprinkles, Christmas sprinkles, and blue sugar all over the kitchen floor and in their sister's laundry hamper.

I had finished reading a book and let me confess I've been a bit of a slug today. Besides, taking Libby to the doctors AGAIN and stopping at a thrift store and then getting the kids lunch I didn't do much. I needed Mike's help A LOT wh…

Depression & The Gospel.

Hey People.
If you know me, like really know me then you know a few things. I can tend to be pretty upbeat and bouncy in general... but I also really struggle with depression.

Over a decade ago, I would definitely have described myself as emotional with a flair for the dramatic. The intense struggle with depression came in after my sister's death. I'm not saying I never had highs and lows before my sister's passing. I did. But the crippling depression, anxiety and panic attacks started after that March 7th 2004.

I have tried really hard to "pull it together". I've tried coaching and motivating myself. My most effective tool had been guiltripping and shaming myself into getting things done. Something has been wrong with me for a long time. At times, I've even had very strong suicidal thoughts.

Couple this with having five kids in six very short years. Very high demanding medical needs of my kids. Dealing with oxygen tanks, apnea monitors, g-tubes, cancer, …

They Say It's Your Birthday....

Most people know today, May 5th, as Cinco de Mayo. And although it's true and well and good the 5th of May holds a special place in my heart.Today is my cousin, Anne's birthday.

People often grow up knowing who their relations are... but Anne came out of the woodworks in my teen years. What an honor and blessing it is having her for my cousin and my friend.
Anne, thank you for your love, support and encouragement. Thanks for not judging me even when you've seen me at some of my worst. I love you and am so thankful to God for you. I hope your day is special and wonderful and that you know even more God's love for you. So glad it's your Birthday! And can't wait to celebrate together!


Gramma's Love


Celebrity Moment: Auntie Sharon

When Auntie Sharon came by the demand was high: "Take a picture with me!!!"  We love you Auntie Sharon.

Free Comic Books, Pizza, Coffee??? Yes Please!

While Mike is at work... the kids and I are going here...

Aaargh Mateys

It was so fun to celebrate the twins birthday a few weeks ago with friends, family and our new neighbors. Fun was had all around.

And then the batteries died before we could get any more pictures... LOL... no really

I love my girl!