Saturday, April 14, 2012
Look at me Mom!
Well, I took that advice this week and boy am I glad I did. I was cleaning the boys room. I try to keep it clean but every now and again it needs a "deep clean" more like sterilization. Anyway, I was hard at work doing something when Libby came bounding in.
"Mom, come on. I want to show you something...."
Instead of brushing her off or telling her I was in the middle of something. I took 30 seconds to finish whatever was in my hands and went downstairs to join her. We went outside. She put her helmet on. And she got on a bike and rode.
For most of you this is no big deal. Libby is 7 after all, right?
But she was riding without training wheels for the first time.
You may ask why did she not learn how to ride a bike without training wheels before now? Two words: Samuel's Cancer.
When Samuel was diagnosed in August of 2010 one of the things we had to avoid during treatment was contact sports and that includes riding a bike. Unspoken we went without riding bikes. It would have been painful to have one other thing to remind us of what Samuel couldn't do... and I didn't want to leave him out.
For me, this moment was a break through. Watching Libby ride a bike... and that bike had no training wheels... I felt a glimmer of hope that maybe my life is returning to some kind of normal. Not an everyone's typical "normal" but our new level of normal for our lives.
I don't have a bike yet. I have looked on Craig's list. But I hope to soon join the kids in riding bikes.
As I watched Libby ride, her face glowing with pride, I felt so thankful that I had said yes. That I would come and see what she needed me to see. That I didn't refuse her because I was too busy with my "work".
And as she took the curve her hair flying behind her I felt myself whisper, "Amen."