Waiting on Results of MRI

Waiting. I absolutely love waiting... said no one ever.
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This is the place where we have to take our thoughts and lay them down-surrender them and even make them captive to God. Sometimes the wild and wooly ones have to be lassoed and wrangled to the ground. So what do we do as we wait?

Do we numb ourselves? Distract ourselves? stuff our faces? Get lost in FB, Pinterest, Instagram? Disappear down the comparison hole?

Trust me, I've done all those things before. And it never fixes the restlessness.

The problem isn't that you have to pin down one thought... it's that they keep coming.

Truthfully, I don't know believe I will ever arrive at mastering this. But I do know that God is with me. He's with me as I wait. With me as I read His Word-

"Lord, you have been our dwelling place in all generations. Before the mountains were brought forth, or ever you had formed the earth and the world, from everlasting to everlasting you are God." (Psalm 90:1)

He's with me as I stumble and struggle with what do I with this day, with this time, with this moment.

So I will surrender, sometimes successfully, often failing. Leaning on one who is greater than me whose mercy and grace cover me. And I breathe.

I pause and start thanking God. Thank you Lord for the beautiful trees outside. Thank you for the sound of my dog's nails clattering in the hallway- that dog brings so much stinking joy- despite all his getting into trash escapades.

Grateful that today I'm getting a little respite. Grateful for my laundry machines to do the hard work of washing and quick drying for me. Grateful for the flowers and their bright happy colors outside. Thankful for the fragrant candle at my bedside. Thankful that my honey is coming home in a couple days. Thankful for this day.

Lord, I surrender all these thoughts and worries and cares about Samuel to you. I trust you with Him. You already perfectly know what's going on in his body. We ask for perfect healing. We trust that your will will be done on earth as it is in Heaven. Thank you for our daily bread. Thank you for providing for us. Help us to trust you and not be afraid. Help me to remove the desperation that creeps in. Help me to hold fast to you knowing that you alone are truly holding me. Thank you for giving us yourself. For making a way for us to be at peace with you. I love you Jesus. In Your Name I pray, Amen.


Grandma said…
My dear Jen: Not just waiting.....but learning, leaning and leaving cares with Him that you are not strong enough or wise enough to carry ..... and receiving His amazing love and peace in exchange. Growing seasons as seen through lessons in agronomy will and are producing a rich harvest. Stay close to The Vine, inseparably hooked, receiving His nourishment. A sweet fragrance is filling the air. An incredible harvest is at hand. Love you all dear one and you know prayer is being multiplied as you read. Never alone. Never abandoned.

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