Friday, August 27, 2010

what a difference a day makes...

If you had asked me a week ago would I imagine that Samuel had cancer I would have looked at you wondering what planet you came from... and here we are... with this crazy scary diagnosis/prognosis.

I had an OB appointment today and all looks well with baby and my fluids look normal! Hurray.

It's hard to try to rest, take it easy and care for myself in the midst of all that's going on. I know it serves everyone and especially the baby but it's not natural to not stay near Samuel while he's in the hospital.

I can see that Mike is exhausted and it's causing a strain on him.

The prospect of being her for a lot longer (6 weeks) seems so overhwelming... but if I look at the year it's terrifying. So one day at a time. Sometimes it's just one deep breath at a time.

Someone brought Samuel a really cool tiger hat. He put it on and roared so I roared back... so he told me, "No Mama. I'm the tiger. You're the Mama!" It gave me a good laugh.

His favorite treat has been oreos lately. I was wondering why he seemed so dirty... it was the oreo crumbs :)

Well, dinner arrived.. so off to nourish the babe within...

10 comments:

Natasha said...

So sweet how Samuel is able to still have times of fun admist his pain and having to be in the hospital. Such a cutie :)

"I can't remember a trial or a pain He did not recycle to bring me gain. All I have need of His hand will provide, He's always been faithful to me"

Caren said...

I am praying for you daily Jen. I'm sorry I dont live closer so I can help you...I'm glad everything is good with the newest napier. I love you!

islanddreamobx said...

Jen, Samuel bouys us all! In spite of his challenge, he's diggin' on his prizes, all the 'watch' he gets to see, and all the visitors. If I feel badly, down, doubtful, it all goes away when I walk in his room and get to spend time with him. He's most precious and affectionate, and he's 'up'! So grateful for him...and what he's showing me!
MyMike

Home said...

What can we bring him? You said that he liked spider man but that someone already hooked him up. Sam asked me today if I could help him make a heart for Samuel. Can he have visitors? Little hands are clasped and little eyes are tightly squeezed shut in prayer.

Stephen Williams said...

Jennifer, sorry I didn't get up and give you a hug last night. It was kind of insane but Laura reprimanded me. Next time I see you there is one reserved.

When I first heard about Samuel, "Before the Throne of God Above" started going through my mind. But while of course it is great theology I didn't really think it was completely apropos to the situation. But since you want comments I thought I'd post the lyrics here and maybe something in them will speak to you in this.

God bless,

Stephen

Before the throne of God above
I have a strong, a perfect plea
A great high Priest whose Name is Love
Who ever lives and pleads for me

My name is graven on His hands
My name is written on His heart
I know that while in heaven He stands
No tongue can big me there depart
No tongue can bid me there depart

When Satan tempts me to despair
And tells me of the guilt within
Upward I look and see Him there
Who made an end to all my sin
Because the sinless Savior died
My sinful soul is counted free
For God the just is satisfied
To look on Him and pardon me
To look on Him and pardon me

Behold Him there the risen Lamb
My perfect spotless righteousness
The great unchangeable I AM
The Kind of glory and of grace
One with Himself I cannot die
My soul is purchased by His blood
My life is hid with Christ on high
With Christ my Savior and my God!
With Christ my Savior and my God!

Love you

Jennifer said...

Thanks Stephen! That's one of my favorite songs! No worries about the hug I knew you were exhausted. I hope you and Laura have a great "night away".

Wanted to ask you about a video proposal... in all your "free time." Ha ha!

Love,

Jennifer

Judy said...

I'm glad your lil' bebe in-utero is thriving. :)

One day at a time seems like a good way to approach this... but I'm saying that having never experienced anything remotely close to this. I wish I had better words, or something encouraging to say... Alas, I'm still lacking. I do know this, oreo's make my teeth pretty dirty.

I'm thinking about you! Much love to you!

Katy VanRyckeghem said...

Jennifer, when you can think for a minute, update us on things to bring to the hospital for you as a fam and for Samuel. Love you and have you all on our hearts all the time- seriously.

Sarah said...

Hey Jennifer

Praying, praying, praying. Have family and friends doing the same. Wish could be there to give you a hug, but this comment will have to suffice...

Love from all of us to all of you xxx

Doug and Monica said...

Just wanted to let you know that we took this evening to pray for Samuel. Some friends stopped by to hang out and we decided to dedicate the time to praying for you and your family!!